dreaming about going for caroling...

tomorrow is going to be the first day of caroling...goodness...I'm guitarist somemore....what have I got myself into...and here my brother is still annoying me to death...just came back from camp twp days ago and here they say caroling is coming up...how am I going to survive this??!!

dreaming about getting pissed off...

seriously...those people won't learn...I absolutely positive that I said at least 5 times that my computer is lagging...and they just won't listen and continue spamming crap on the msn conversation...if I was right beside anyone of them that time..I swear I will kill them...pissing me off like crazy...slap them in the face is the first thing I will do...

dreaming about Survivor Camp...

Camp was crazy...that's all I could say...was 4 groups there..was in group Benjamin...LoL..and team leader..of course Ben himself...goodness...totally out of my mind during camp...speechless about how I acted...crazy about the lack of sleep..but loving everyone and the time I spent there...worth it lor...though came back with serious lack of energy...the games were fun..dare I admit...food was okay...air-con was freezing....only bad thing bout it...go check out the MIF blog to see about it...the link is here if you can find it...

dreaming about wearing a dress??

ok...so not in a MILLION years I would ever dream about wearing a dress...it so girlish!!(at least in my opinion)...and this stupid year end jamuan of my school's prefect society just made me went to buy a DRESS...how I hate wearing it....after this...I'm never gonna wear a dress for the next 3 years...

dreaming about being sick

ack....I hate being sick...this time is the worst ever...fever, sore throat, flu and cough all at the same time...eating medicine like crazy...never want to be sick again...ever!

dreaming about a concert...

went to a concert yesterday...that involves singing, piano, orchestra and sort...never thought I was the type that enjoyed music eh? but honestly I love it..dunno why myself...thank God that I had a chance to go...but to hell with the skirt wearing...I actually wore a skirt...me!Vanessa!actually wore a skirt!I probably was out of my mind that night...but most of the people complimented..so..oh well...it wasn't that bad..I think?

dreaming about a brother's birthday...

today's my bro's 15 birthday...I was supposed to totally ignore it...but it just doesn't feel right...he is my only brother after all...but he was the one who ignored my birthday first...its an equivalent exchange! can't blame me for that! I'm currently speechless....nothing to say....oh well...just try going on with the day...

dreamer's guide to ESP

Dreamer's Guide to ESP

ESP:eat sleep play

ESP can usually be used during the holidays or when you have nothing to do or when you're bored or...well...you know what I mean...

E:eat
eat means food...food means anything that is edible
eat when you're hungry
eat when you want to bite something
eat when you feel sad
eat when you feel empty
eat when you start digesting yourself
eat when you have nothing to do

S:sleep
sleep means rest...sleep means you're in a state when you feel or know nothing
sleep when you're tired
sleep when you're bored
sleep when you have dark circles around your eyes
sleep when its dark
sleep when your emotions are going crazy
sleep when you have nothing to do

P:play
play means fun...play means excitement
play when you're too energized
play when you're frustrated in doing something
play when you're bored
play when you're under stress
play when you have too much time
play when you have nothing else to do

dreaming about bored-ness

too bored lah holiday...if i'm not watching anime then i'm watching manga...or else tv...or maybe twilight...BORING!!!so bacause of my bored-ness i created THIS:


Very hyper at times
A person that loves to talk
Not interested in boring things
Evil minded
Suck at reality
Suck at reality
A person that loves to talk

A person that loves to talk
Utterly bored

Young and enthusiastic
On the fast lane
Not interested in boring things
Guilty at times

Kill whatever that blocks my way
Innocent act
Tomboyish

Tomboyish
Evil minded
Not interested in boring things
Guilty at times


i know its crappy...but oh well....better than nothing to do...and plus with my idiotic brother within my personal space i can't do/see/listen/find anything private anyway...

dreaming about holidays

hell yeah!!the holidays are here...thank God exams are over..i got like 8As1B1C1D...in my opinion the results were...well..okay?but how i hate that D!now i'm just waiting for the holidays...but i wonder what i'll do during the holidays...very bored lah...so i'll probably just stay at home and rot to death...arghh...BORING!!!

dreaming about exams...again

damn this school lah...so many exams...hating form 1 now...worse than UPSR year...but who cares, at least I'm positive that I don't...exam coming, panic...I want computer lah...cannot don't study...arghh!! the stress! the panic! the fear! I'm dying....

dreaming about....dancing?

I don't like dancing...I dislike dancing...I HATE dancing...but why the hell do they have to put me for that tambourine dance...its hard to remember the steps, I can barely catch up to the beat and I do NOT like standing right in front of the crowd...after this...no more dancing...nope...none...nothing...no more to do with rhythmic movements...that's it..and that draws the line...

dreaming about...stress???

ok...so going back to school just 2 days after a road accident isn't really the best choice to make...school work was pretty much pouring down like rain...plus all the duties and all...gosh...how can any human possibly deal with all these stuff??...I was like..oh...come on!gimme a break already!...all those work and studies piled up together feels like a giant rock on my back...and I can fall anytime...why didn't that motorcycle kill me anyway...then I won't need to deal with all this...wait...the WORST part is..they had to choose that freaking day to take the class photo...out of so many days...they had to choose the day I came back and when the scratch on my face was damn obvious...

dreaming accidents

this morning when I was on my way to school (FYI, I took the bus to school), when I was about to cross the road I was hit by a motorcycle...I think I black out for a while because the next thing I knew I was face down on the floor, my schoolbag was a feet in front of me, I was facing the traffic, my specs was no where I knew of and the bike that hit me was behind me...now I have a big scratch on my right cheek, scratch on my nose, forehead and right leg...how sad...how painful...at least I got 2 days off...

dreamer's fear of going back to school

oh great....holidays out and school's back...how I loathed school...with all the duties and stuff...just the thought of what's going to happen in school is making me freak out...I really hope school won't start...or at least one more week of holiday...enjoy the hours while I still can...*gulp*

dreaming...Tags....dunno why I'm doing this...

Rules and regulation of the tag ;All 21 people must do unless you don't
have a blog. Write the names of 21 friends you can think of in your
head. And then answer the questions , Say you're guessing if you don't
know , but at least guess on all of them.After doing this , tag your
unlucky friends to do the same.


1)kai wei(kiwi)
2)khoo elaine
3)chong minyi
4)cheh kar mun
5)ng wenn sze
6)lee yoon ling
7)ng sze hui
8)lim tze thong
9)andrea
10)yow hongbin
11)tan zhi yuan
12)ting xin yuan
13)ho wen wen
14)lum yue sum
15)chin kai sheng
16)foo zhi ying
17)cigie
18)tan elaine
19)khoo enrique
20)yong xin hui
21)tim au yong


1.How do you meet 7? secondary school...class....

2. What would you do if you and 15 had never met? speechless....but not really a big deal lah...


3.What would you do if 20 and 1 dated?LOLX....les meh????

4. Have you seen 17 cried? No...

5. Would 4 and 16 make a good couple? they don't know each other...not les either...

6. Do you think 11 is attractive? har?????attractive ar? so so lah....no offense...

7. What's 2 favourite colour? I not sure wor...

8. When was the last time you talked to 9? two weeks ago...before holiday...

9. What language does 8 speak?chinese/english

10. Who is 13 going out with? ......how I know?

11. Would you ever date 17? NEVER...

12. Where does 18 live? either taman midah or cheras...

13. What is the best thing about 4? active gua...

14. What would you like to tell 10 right now ? how are you doing?

15. What is the best thing about 20? can talk alot...

16. Have you ever kiss 2? no...

17. What is the best memory you have of 5? standard one...

18. When's the next time you're going to see 4? either this friday or next monday...

19. How is 7 different from 6? height and personality

20. Is 2 pretty? ok loh...

21. What was your 1st impression of 15? talkative...

22. How did you meet 3? standard two...

23. Is 5 your best friend? used to be...for like one year?

24. Do you hate 12? depends...

25. Have you seen 18 in the last month? no

26. When was the last time you saw 16?last year...

27. Have you been to 5's house? no

28. When's the next time you'll see 10? no idea...

29. Are you close to 11? not really...

30. Have you been to the movies with 4? nope...

31. Have you gotten in trouble with 8? maybe...

32. Would you give 19 a hug? NEVER!!!

33. When have you lied to 3? maybe maybe not...

34. Is 11 good at socializing? definitely...

37. What's the best thing about your friendship with 9? dunno...

45. Did you ever accidentally physically hurt 3? don't remember...

46. Do you live close to 7? half an hour if taking the bus...

47. What is 8's favourite food? not sure...

48. What kind of car does 1 have? don't know

49. Have you traveled anywhere with 9? no...

50. If you give 14 a $100 , What would she / he spend it on? LOL...either keep it in the bank or spend it on who-knows-what things that he likes...

dreamer's guide to a 2 week holiday

GUIDE TO A 2 WEEK HOLIDAY

so...there's 2 weeks of holidays for me...the only things that I can do are...:

1. sleep : something I must do
2. eat : don't do this and starve to death
3. drink : try not drinking anything for one day and let's see how you survive
4. online : aren't I doing it now?
5. hang out with family/friends : or else get stuck at home and rot for the holidays
6. study : not THAT necessary but mom will kill me if I don't
7. day dream : of course!
8. SMS : definitely...
9. read novels : that's the point why I'd bought so many books right?
10. sports : I still need to keep in shape during the holidays...
    

dreamer's finally free

whoooo!!!!!I'm finally free!!and I meant exam and school for two freaking long weeks! So happy right now!Shock man!Exam finally over and school OUT!!Now I can FINALLY rest and enjoy my two long weeks...ah...now I can just chill and hang out with my besties....

dreamer's hated time of all

what's my most hated time of all? right...exam time...how I hate exams...arghh!!! Its driving me crazy!!STUDY CRAZY!!!Not to say that this time's exam is PMR format somemore...eerytime I can't remember something I feel like banging my head on the wall or desk or something...my school's exam is freaking hard!!And there's five times per year!I don't think my brain have enough memory to stuff all the textbooks in it...poor brain...I blame the teachers...

dreamer's loathed transport

oh...how I freakin loathed the bus...and I STILL have to take the bus to school!!Buses are always slow, cramped, sometimes cold and pretty much stinks...oh God help me(sarcastic) sometimes when I'm rushing cuz I gonna be late the bus driver always takes his time, driving slowly to every stop, slowly giving the tickets...slow in every freaking thing!!If my patience was THAT limited, I would have already punched him there and then!oh well...I guess I'm stuck with taking the bus for at least a few years from now...try to live it...(pfft...yeah right...like it'll ever happen...)

dreamer's life through a suffering headache

owww...oww...and it still hurts...no, that's not the word...not hurt...KILLS!!...yeah, that's it...the pain kills...you don't get it?oh right~haven't told ya yet...I slipped and fall on my head yesterday...and luckily not face down...or else it'll cause permanent damage...ouch...yesterday my head was still okay I guess...at least no signs of pain...but this morning, the throbbing pain in my head was killing me!!I was like oh my gawsh!This is suffering man! The pain was making me feel kinda dizzy through the whole day at school...I almost walk into the wall during duty...And not to mention I'm always good at dodging things...the good thing is no blood...or else I'd have to wear a bandage on my head to school...don't tell me wearing a bandage is not that bad...it'll seriously bruise my reputation!I have an ego the size of texas for pete sake!...Whatever~now I'm just hoping that the killing pain will be long gone soon enough...

dreamer's life through holidays...

oh yeah! The holidays...whoo!!!nah, nothing special though...its only a long weekend, its labour day, what 'cha expect...

now this is what I'm most PROBABLY going to do today

1. day dream
2. sleep
3. online(which I am doing it right now...)
4. shopping
5. family time
6. day dream again
   
7. eat (?)
8. chat with friends
9. hang out with friends
10. visit relatives...

well, that's about it...life is enjoyable isn't it?

dreamer's life through Wednesdays...

urghh....Wednesdays....how I loathed them...its not because its a school day you know, its because of the freaking uniform I have to wear on every freaking Wednesday...The PBSM(persatuan bulan sabit merah)uniform is hideous...hideous I tell you!!Life is cruel, especially when you have to wear that particular uniform, it makes it worse...life through Wednesdays are hard, very hard...

dreamer's guide to awkward situations...

ever been in awkward situations...no?yes? well, to say the least, I have and more than a hundred times...how do I deal with awkward situations...usually my friends love to ask me that...what do they think I am? God? Well, guys...here are your answers, so stop bugging me anymore!


when you're in an awkward situation ...

1. pretend that you're not even listening
2. act cool
3. act like you don't care
4. stay out of it and just watch the show
5. don't try to give comments
6. break the silence...or maybe not...depends on which type of awkward situation you're in(if its like a glaring type of awkward don't say anything...trust me, or get beat up...by them)
7. pull the knot out of it if its noisy like hell, find out what had happened first
8. give a death glare to everyone who's involved
9. be mad...very mad, scold the hell out of them
10. just walk away and tell someone you are very sure that can really handle it...

well, that's most of it, of course there's more...but I'll keep those my little secret, these will be enough for you to use for like 10 years...

dreamer's life through Sundays...

whoo!!! Sundays!!! My FAVOURITE day of the whole damn freaking week...

this is a list of how I usually live through Sundays...

1. church...that's a must, I LOVE sunday school anyways...esp. my class...
2. sometimes guitar class...
3. lunch!!!
4. family time!!(shopping etc)
5. hang out with my gang...
6. day dream...
7. thinking of a speacial someone
8. movie?
9. tea break...
10. exercise...
11. definitely online...
12. study...very seldom...the seldom I meant is like once in every 2 years...
13. reading...I'm no bookworm....or am I?
14. visit relatives....which I have tons of them meaning in literal...
15. space out...big difference with day dreaming
16. nap!!!
17. dinner...
18. stay home and get emotional...
19. tv maybe...
20. dance...
21. listen to music!
22. chat with friends...
23. be the creepy kid that people think I am...
24. supper!
25. sleep...

whoa...such enjoyable Sundays...I just simply love them...

dreamer's guide to calming down...

calming down...not interested right? Well....so am I...but still, whatever lah, this is just something that pop up in my mind...

calming down = stay calm = chill = go with the flow = do not care much = don't make any expression = don't even DARE try to think of anything = don't focus on anything = if available don't do anything = sleeping is not a way of staying calm...remember that(Coz when you wake up you're beyond calm and totally the opposite...believe me, I've tried...) = don't do/think/say/listen to anything that can make you not calm = if you want you can count your pulse = don't touch books = don't touch your school bag = day dream in front of a very nice field, esp. a green one... = don't look aback at your memories = try reciting something again and again non stop = sit down in a very comfortable but not longer than an hour = staying calm

that's 'bout it...

dreamer's guide to 'love'...

whoa...come to think of love...no idea why I wanted to say this...

this is a kinda note I have...

1. love has many types...deal with which one you're in now...
2. type a: family love...for instants, you love your dad, mom, bro/sis, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins.....etc
3. type b: friends love...let's say you just love your friend like he/she is family, but they aren't really your family though, so you'll just have to make that love a friend like love...
4. type c: teacher's love...aka you're your teacher's favourite student and that teacher is also your favourite teacher, so the teacher loves you a lot and you'll also love your teacher alot...
5. type d: 'love at first sight' kinda love...almost everyone has heard before what the hell is 'love at first sight'...so that kinda save's me the explaining, that 'love' isn't really 'real love', in my opinion, that's only liking...unless you're telling me its a crush....well, I can't argue with that...
6. type e: romance love...this one kinda gross me out...I'm a bit too young for that I might as well go with type d, but I'm typing it anyway...I don't really know 'bout this, haven't really been through this, so I'll explain it......in another ten years time maybe...

well, that's it...I'm sure that tour thinking this is absolutely nothing like a 'guide to love'...well, of course its not! What do you think I am!?? It just matches my theme that's all...so don't be expecting real guidiance...

dreamer's guide to life....

DREAMER'S GUIDE TO LIFE:

1. REMEMBER your name: vanessa
2. REMEMBER your birthday: 8 march
3. REMEMBER what school you're in: SMK Convent Jalan Peel

*4. REMEMBER how is 'life' going to be if you don't remember these things:
totally no idea....probably die...?